Struggles!!

It is no secret that I have been struggling a great deal!  I am feeling alittle "put" out I guess.  I (until recently) had been working my butt off with some really good results.  But no one had noticed I had lost almost 40 pounds!!  We were at church when people started coming up to my husband telling him how great  he looked....he does look really good.  He is thinner now than when we started dating.  Why is it men can just cut out a small amount and drop 40+ pounds so fast!!  I'm not looking for glory here, but i just want someone to see all the hard work I've done.  I know I'm whining a lot here!!

This is a picture of me in February...at a convention...i'm in the blue shirt. Before starting my weight loss journey.

I skipped weigh in this week because last week I gained 3 pounds.  I stepped on the scaled Monday morning and I was up another 2 pounds!!!  I am SO angry with myself.  I'm a stress eater.  It also hasn't helped my husband has been bringing junk back into the house.  I know it doesn't mean I need to eat it but I haven't been able to stay away from it.  I'm very weak!  He brings home Italian bread from the bakery, candy, sweets ect.  I told him I can't have that stuff in the house...but is it right for me to not allow him something he likes?

This is us in March the week I started TOPS.

Here we are 2 weeks ago....see how thin hubby is?  I don't see any difference in myself.  I know i'm throwing a pitty party but I'm so frustrated I can just scream...but I don't want to wake my kids yet...LOL!

I will try and keep my blog up to date.  I'm off to get my butt kicked by Jillian Michaels on the Biggest Loser "game" for the Wii.

I'm Still here!

I am still here.  I have been struggling a lot lately on keeping on track.  I seem to eat everything in sight.  I don't know why.  I have not been to a TOPS meeting in almost a month.  I weighed myself here today and I was up almost 5 pounds!  I'm pretty disgusted in myself.   It's almost as if food has become a drug of choice to me.  I can't seem to get enough.

We are finally back in our house after a very long period of time living with my parents.  Our bathroom flooded and we had to completely remodel it.  We were at my parents for almost 3 months.  July has been a very busy month, with many birthdays.  Mine is the last of the month coming up on Monday.  I'm really trying to get back on track. 

I promise to be more faithful in my postings.  I'm going to share pictures from my garden with you...this has been the physical activity I've had this summer.  But it is a really good workout...weeding the garden.

Sweet Peppers

Melons

watermelon

zucchini

yellow summer squash

tomatoes

red onions

butternut squash

herbs--chives, thyme

Herb--cilantro

Herb--oregano

Herb--sage, peppermint

We are now beginning to see the fruits of our labor!  Last night and tonight we had zucchini and summer squash.  I love this stuff!!

Weigh In Week 11

I LOST 2.2 Pounds...BUT not only that I've reached 30 pounds lost!!  I still can't believe it.  I struggle each day to control my eating.  I get upset and the first thing I do is think...i need something to eat!! 

I am still taking it day by day and pound by pound.  How has your week been?

I'm STILL here!! Week 10 Weight In

Well I just wanted to stop in and say I am still around!  It has been such a stressful 3 weeks.  We are still living with my parents...but making progress on our bathroom.  I did not weigh in last week because we were going to go visit an elderly couple from our church.  But that got cancelled.  Knowing that I wasn't going to be weighing in made me think I could just eat eat eat.  I felt horrible all week!

I am going to weigh in around 6pm tonight.  I think I'm down but not really sure.  I have not been really keeping track of what I'm eating. 

I am SO close to loosing 30 pounds total I can taste it.  I just need to get up over this hump.  I've posted updated pictures on my side bar.  I do not see a difference but can feel it in the way my clothes fit...or don't fit.

I LOST!!!  3.6 pounds!  I have a little over one pound to go before loosing 30 pounds.

Week 9

I am having such a bad week.  Emotionally, physically, and all the above.  It start last Thursday when we had to buy a new truck.  Wasn't something we wanted to do but had to do.  Thankfully we got a good deal on one, thanks to my brother's employer.  It seemed after that point everything went crazy.  Friday morning my daughter called me downstairs to the washroom where there was a water leak.  I placed a bucket down and went about my day.  I thought it was leaking from the pipe...no biggy!  WRONG...Saturday morning we woke up to a very soggy bathroom floor.  It had been leaking between the floor and subfloor.  We have to demolish our whole bathroom and replace everything.  Not only that but 2 rafters in the floor need to be replaced as well.  We are now living with my parents because no water equals no bathroom!! 

With all this I turned to food.  I was so stressed all I did was eat.  I just wanted to crawl into a hole and forget about everything.  I KNOW I gained alot of weight this week.  I can just feel it.  I weighed myself at my parents house and it says I'm up 5 pounds!  I'm feeling really sick....I have thought about not going to my weigh in meeting this week...but I know that isn't going to help one bit.

I'll update as soon as I get back from the meeting.

Hows your week going?

Week 8 Weigh In

I reached another mile stone tonight!!! 

LOST.... 4.9 pounds

Making a grand total of 26 pounds lost since in 8 weeks!!

I was asked tonight what I did this week.  The only thing I can say is I've been eating! LOL!  BUT I make sure I know and am aware of what I'm putting in my mouth.  I measured and counted everything.  That helps so much.  I've also been cooking very healthy foods. 

For the first time in a long time I've felt SO good and have been able to go outside and play with my kids.  We have been playing baseball, kickball and soccer.  We are doing a lot of physical activities.  I LOVE IT!!

WEEK 7 weigh In

I have been SO busy!  My sister had a baby on Thursday last week and I've been all baby crazy!!  We are approaching the end of our homeschool year and we are preparing for our exams.  The weather has been so nice that I have been out side working in the yard and gardens.  We have 2 gardens full of peas, and I've been working on my herb garden.  OK enough of that....now onto my weigh in.

This week I LOST 3.0 pounds!!  I was aiming for 4 pounds loss to make up for the week before...3 pound gain.  But I'll take it!! 

I made this the other day for lunch!!  I loved it so I thought I'd share it with you!

Green Salad with Strawberries

1 tablespoon pure maple syrup , or brown sugar (I used splenda brown sugar)

2 tablespoons red-wine vinegar
1 tablespoon oil
1/4 teaspoon salt
Freshly ground pepper , to taste
3 cups baby spinach
3 cups watercress, tough stems removed
2 1/2 cups sliced fresh strawberries
1/3 cup fresh chives, cut into 2-inch pieces
1/2 cup toasted chopped pecans
1/4 cup crumbled goat cheese

Whisk maple syrup (or brown sugar), vinegar, oil, salt and pepper in a large bowl. Add spinach, watercress, strawberries and chives; toss to coat. Divide the salad among 4 plates and top with pecans and goat cheese.

215 calories; 17 g fat (3 g sat, 9 g mono); 4 mg cholesterol; 15 g carbohydrates; 5 g protein; 4 g fiber; 209 mg sodium; 454 mg potassium.